bumper sticker

thanks for the comment on the last post, julina. it reminded me to post a bumper sticker i saw today. it said:

dear God,
why do you allow so much violence in the schools?/

dear concerned student,
i'm not allowed in schools.

my incesant list of to dos

i took an ambien, which evidentally doesn't work on double doses of vicodin too well, and i'm just laying in bed not sleeping. i think it's because i can't stop thinking of all the things i have to do very soon, yet don't have the motivation for. so i figured maybe if i write it down where others can, probably won't, but can read it, i might have more drive to get them done. here goes:

1. sew kyra's easter dress
2. make reservations for italy
3. get yard landscaped
4. restart veggie garden...once i can evict all the rabbits in there
   
5. finish tileing bathroom
6. paint kitchen
7. organize whole house
8. scrapbooks
9. get in shape

this is just a portion of the list that is eating my brain away. maybe if i start with this much, i'll have the umph to do more. any words of inspiration would be greatly appreciated.

what kind of world is this?

what has this world come to? no toothpaste or lip gloss on the plane, but they would let my husband take scissors on even after he told them he had them, instead of fire drills being the major interruption during school our kids are having lock down drills, and now you go to a high school dance concert and see a cop at every door. it's supposed to make up feel safer, but instead it makes me realize how unsafe our communities have become. i even brought up considering private schools for the girls at our anniversary dinner tonight. it's scary just to think of sending our kids to school now days. if i had any amount of confidence that homeschooling would work in our home and situation, i'd do it in a second. all we can do is pray and have faith.

pleasers vs. pleasees

i'm a people pleaser...although i do more than my fair share of displeasing people. in other words, i have a tendency to feel guilty if i don't please. but for those who are the pleasees and the guiltdrivers, i think they are forcing more burden on themselves than the pleasers because they waste the extra energy on manipulating and pushing guilt onto others. i'm talking in particular about those who feel their needs should be met or understood without actually telling you their true feelings. we are not mindreaders and should not feel guilty for not apologizing for something we didn't even know happened or didn't happen. if we want someone to know our feelings, we need to actually speak them. all we can go on is what someone tells us. if someone is offended and doesn't actually vocalize it, just acts it, we should not stress about what we could have possibly done wrong. i've learned since being married to my husband, although i'm not fully able to do it, that if someone is going to falsely tell me they're fine, even though their voice tells me otherwise, to go on as if it is fine...since that is what they told me. so next time you feel bad about something and you want someone to feel sorry for it or change it, come out and tell them how you feel...it's the best way to fix things.

some like it fake

is it better to be fake because it seems real or real because it seems fake? when you look at a picture or a flower, do you say "wow that looks real" or "it looks fake"? if a flower looks too perfect we may think it looks fake or real, depending on our view. i suppose it depends on our attitude. if fake looks better to us, we'll see a flawless flower as seeming fake, whereas if we like realism more, we'd probably think it looked real. i think it's funny that when people get plastic surgery to fix flaws and look more "real" it makes them look "fake". the more perfect we try to become on the outside, the more ridiculous we look, so start focusing on improving the inside and becoming more real personality wise.

the pains of fame

i often realize what a pain it would be to be a celebrity. the constant paparazzi stalking, infidelity, everything you do or say becomes a controversy, not to mention the lies and assumptions made by the tabloids. i've been feeling quite bloated the last few days and have an even deeper sympathy for those in the spotlight. if they even have a little bloating from gas or pms, they are dubbed "pregnant" or "showing off their baby bump". i personally know what it's like to have (many) people ask me if i'm pregnant when i'm not...but at least they ask before spreading the news abroad the earth. thankfully, those that know me know that a bump...or many bumps...on me is normal and not to assume. so count your many blessings you're not famous because you can live life and not be judged for it.

the 'hole' dilemma

this year is the year that shayla will be allowed to decide if she wants to get her ears pierced. she keeps going back and forth on this decision. i don't mind what she decides but justin's trying to lure her towards not getting it done. my mom never got her's pierced and has said, as have others i know, "if god wanted us to have holes in our ears, he would have put them there." i guess we could use this argument in many other things then. if he wanted us to have our curly hair straightened or our straight hair curled, he would have done that. or if he wanted our nails painted, same thing. we have no problem with all these other things, so why do some feel so strong about the ear piercing? it guess it's because it's permanent, but i'm all for it.