excuse last post

k, so my last post was written while under the influence of ambien, so please excuse the disturbance of it. justin thought i was psycho when he saw it. it's crazy the effect that drug can have on a person. my counselor has the same sleep issues as me and so he has to take ambien regularly too. he said that his wife had to take the keys away from him because he went out and drove on it one nite...not such a good thing. i can't even remember how i got from the kitchen to the bedroom after taking it, i can't imagine what would happen if i drove. so, if you ever take ambien, take it while you're in bed already and don't get back up.

dead ends

i am suddenly very interested on the course through
which our extremeties fall asleep to the point of numbness and then the pain involved in trying to reawaken them. i'm curious to the best processes to go about doing so with the least amount of discomfort involved. of course, being in my present state of being under the influence of ambien, doesn't help wake those areas up much, as i just had to crawl with my laptop out of my bedroom because my foot does not currently function. quite the site indeed. i plan to study more about this anomaly, as i see it, and will report my findings here at a later time. hopefully, i'll remember my plan to do so when i wake up. any help in this area would be very welcome and appreciated.

missing links

you dream of the day when your kids are all off to school so you can pursue more things such as cleaning, school, etc. but when that day gets here, all you can do is think about how much you miss your kids and hope they're doing ok. so at the end of the day, your kids did much better than you emotionally and probably got more done. i need to get to my list of things i want to get done and just start checking them off.